Friday, September 16;
facade
okay, ive decided to bring some life to this pathetic blog after like what, months of hibernation.
apologises to anyone who might have a problem reading this entry as it might be in drips and draps since well, my mind's not that organised at this point of time. epecially when ive got bits of biology Bowman's capsules and photophosphorylation plus chemistry 2 4 DNPH and transition metals all scattered here and there in that thing up in my skull.
well ive realised that ive changed quite abit from sc. i probably have split personalities as well. public image, inner image, the many different facets of me and of course, the one my parents, unfortunately, have to live with. it's almost scary how different people can morph into different skins when necessary or appropriate. people can proclaim they hate hypocrites or backstabbers of what not, but have you ever thought of it being reflected upon yourself? And it is just really unclear to you how you actually show it. Even gossiping is under this caterogry. call it injecting general human knowlege of those around me or whatever but i think in all of us, there is a tinge of hypocrisy - even i have to admit i do. human weakness, i guess.
maybe due to life changes, maybe cos of many setbacks, or the many others' higher expectations that i self-inflict pressure on, maybe cos im growing older, maybe cos the world is not just coated with that nice rosey lovely little tinted coloured thing. the world is in many ways, plastic, selfish, disgusting, sly and horrible. of cos, it's all part of Man's doing. Man's mistakes are interferring everywhere and everything, affecting every single one. there are so many problems in the world be it Mother Nature who is also giving up and growing old, the distict separation of coloured laundry (racial integration, my foot), even for students, squeezing circles in the squares that have non-elastic parameters.
can you just imagine if the world was like the Garden of Eden. ha. so impossible.
haha what a clear example of losing focus, ive ventured into world problems now. im not blaming that the world is rubbing my character off and manifesting and evolving into a different creature, but i definitely think it has a effect on everyone. some may not feel it, others may not even think it's a problem. but just think, the world full of barbies and kens.
of course, we wouldnt have such ridiculous great hourglass figures and well-sculpted bodies. Labels: nostalgia, ponder
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