helloooo everybaadee - it's updated it's updated, so don't NAG!! :)
im sure after awhile most people realise how un-updated this blog can be and how ridiculously useless it can get haha can't help it for a busy working woman like myself right :) so here's the author of this pathetic blog giving a huge TAG by giving you a teaser of what's been happening so far (even though i absolutely hate the idea of allowing my 'GP' blog to turn into a public exhibition of my life).
the dreadful a levels are over since a month ago. finally. but to tell you the truth, i was and still am not totally ecstatic about it as others would have probably been by celebrating and painting the town red on the very day they end their paper. i guess it was well, another chapter i closed for me. in positive light, i can take a break from that really tiring and strenuous journey towards the damn a levels (though my papers were very brilliantly spread out so it wasnt too squashy). but on the other hand, i hate, absolutely, the period of waiting time before the results decide to spring up. i hate to know that there's really nothing i can do with the worrying and anxiety that still harbours in me since the beginning of the a levels. and trust me, when i mean anxiety, i'm really scared. but i guess there's nothing you can really do, not even seduce the old cranky a level markers or not. i guess you and i just have to let things run its course and trust that everything is part of His plan, of which we don't get to know of course. not even a hint or a peek. my, He's a great secret-keeper.
relationships-wise, that includes friendships of course all you mr and little misses reading this, i guess it's rather complicated. those closer to me, you probably know the events and situations already while for the others, haha you'll find out sooner or later since word can travel fast somehow and there are never ending pairs of ears everywhere around me. there are still some minor hiccups here and there in some that i wish i can mend, but maybe not now. in a summary, it's slightly different and as usual, my life can get exciting with its many characters:)
it's funny to think that it's already the end of december. ok i havent sent out my christmas cards (edit: which i have done already la)but thats outta point. im sure many have realised how fast our jc life has zipped past. it sped away in a flash of lightning and the clash of thunder but you have to admit, it is a turning point of your life, don't you think. well, despite whatever you say, i think so. how cliche it can get, but it's the sense of familiarism that orientation's occurring again in less than a month.
think about the new faces and people you've met. think about the amount of what-you-thought-was-important information that you've tried so hard to squeeze and use (though you doubt re-using again in the near future for that matter). think about the times you actually managed to give a smile or even heartedly laughed, no matter how little or how minute. think about the lessons and the pointers you have learnt. think of the food youve been eating in the SAME canteen. think of the nights you cram to finish (or copying someone else's) mr choo's math tutorial or the ever-never-ending GP compres or essays or outlines that ms chan gives oh-so-freely.
think of the paths that you have walked and crossed. think of the changes that has evolved in you - feelings, thoughts, opinions. even if it's more confused, more messed up and even more complicated before. there's even more things to think about but the list is endless and infinite. etc. etc. etc. don't you think it has been quite a sackful, all in just 2 years of your life? a multi-junction of raging hormones, anxiety, confusion and in-between maturity and rebellion.
it's almost scary to think that, if all things go well and favourable of cos, we're turning into adults. the very people we detest when they disapprove or prevent us from doing our desires. the people who are not allowed to make mistakes and get away with it. the ones whom younger ones are to look up to and drain advices from. the very beings who are supposed to be matured and not foggy-headed. they can't even get brilliantly singapore subsidised public transport. can they still get student meals when they're in uni? SEE. i even had to think about that. it's one bloody giant step we're taking.
but, are we ready for that? are we strong enough to handle this sudden and underestimated responsibility that has been shoved to us? well, we can't do anything to delay this can we, it'll just sprout out sooner or later. we'd just have to get our asses in the (presumely politically) right mentality and put it to our advantage then. damn, we just have to grow up dont we.
okey dokes this is one nice lovely looooooong entry don't you think :) well, at least it keep all of you (or at least those nagging at me) occupied for the time being :) so be good and maybe another one nice one will be out soon. busy busy working woman remember, well, not anymore soon though :)
oh yes, early merry christmas too! hope santa, that lovely beardy man, this year is nice and sweet & not too stingy ;)
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