Friday, July 21;
plastic eyes, silicon smiles
hi there, yesyes it's been long since ive updated. i have noticed an increase in seconds-bloghoppers who click the orange petals above this to check if the date's been changed. Apologies, had quite a few projects due and had nothing much i wanted to tell the world.
*warning - looooooooooooong entry ahead.
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i was just thinking. it's scary to think hypocrisy is in everyone of us.
it's almost instinctive and innate that we have split personalities, that are triggered and applied like templates to different groups of people. im not saying about protocols or formalities that one is subjected to, when youre with a certain group of people of maybe, a higher societal status or seniority level. but the fact that hypocrisy can even exist within the different groups of friends that one can mix with.
many a times, under peer pressure, conscious or not, one's decisions can be adversely affected by the people around you. you unconsciously make yourself and your beliefs disappear, only to submerge yourself into the 'culture' and ideology of your friends, or maybe could be 'friends'. you would be afraid to be laughed at, looked down upon or ridiculed. but then again, this may happen only with one group of friends, meanwhile, in another group of friends, you would not have thought of the decision so hard. maybe because that group is, simply, different. other people may or may not realise that this hypocrisy effect can be caused even if it's restraining yourself from bashing that group member for his/her freakin attitude you hate, simply because it's group project. so because of this, you try to smile and get on with work, to get over and done with.
on the other hand, some people i know, would blatantly confess to the hate-directed person that he/she really cannot be put up with but due to the totally unfortunate circumstances, they would have to. sometimes, this method would work, that the hate effect for both parties are mutual and almost loving. but sometimes this method wont work. esp if the 'inflicted' party isnt willing to do work with someone who has just totally hit his emotional sack by saying "i hate you, probably cos of your face, you've got to live with that fact. Too bad". it can be terribly shocking to someone who doesnt know that half the world hates him already. a rather sad fella i must say.
it's almost disgusting to think that humans can have such a capability that comes on, almost, horrendously naturally. well dont you think it's scary to know that we all have that 'evil' dr jekyll-mr hyde theory in us when we dont even realise or see it? and it can come so normally too, being nice and pally in front of this person like a little innocent girl, huge bambi eyes but with a red flicking fork tail sticking out from behind her innocent baby blue dress. of cos this can be an exaggeration that everyone has selfish evil intentions, but the fact that it can happen its scary. and no, im not implying that im that girl. you do remember how my *ahem small eyes are ALWAYS an issue right.
well, its like one of the fundamental issues of the Original Sin. that somewhere deep inside us, it's these un-erasable, stuck-to-the-core, usually undesirable bits that make us all human. the same way how im sure if you really think about it, all of us, and yes you two-eyed literate monster, has at least one of the seven deadly sins - pride, envy, gluttony, lust, anger, greed and sloth. or we might not even know of.
THAT's another big topic to talk about but i wont. not now at least. it's almost similar to this entry. just think about it. eerie but almost so true, dont you think? that one way or another, we have committed one of those before, be it anger or sloth? the easy relapse of a person to be caught, conscious or sub-conscious, committing these faults. it really pinpoints to the core of Man. no matter how pure, virginal, wholesome or noble someone can be, that bitter core still remains.
oops ive talked a tad too much this time. this is what you get after stuffing a talkative creature in a bottle. but if you've read it up to here, religiously, well, thank you and you're one good being. God will bless you very very well :)
run along now then, tra lala :)Labels: ponder
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