december's here already and the year's coming to an end. that's pretty fast the way this year has swooped us up dont you think. and im glad i managed to survive week 7 of semester. plus i managed to squeeze in 2 orchard outings with bagio boobies and small smint since theyve finished their uni exams. imagine walking the same stretch of road within two consecutive days. thank goodness i was in slip-ons and you see girls, the things i do for you haha
i was just thinking, how sometimes one has to just accept things the way they are. almost like believing in fate. but im not referring to the heck-care attitude. im referring to the one that well, you swallow what reality has spit on you with and work your way around it. we can have brilliant plans made out and the best wishes in the heart waiting for it to materialise, but inevitably, we are not soothsayers that can determine what actually happens. many a times i tell myself that things happen for a reason, they happen for a cause that we may not be able to see. but as life takes us on this journey, we can only maneuver around it and ride on it.
so sometimes on days i wish things would go the way it is 'suppose' to be, i remind myself that how it really is going, could be the original supposed route - and im trying to change it. it makes you feel less vulnerable and less incompetent. in many ways, it jerks you up to know that the way life is isnt really your fault but it's more of how you take life and make it opportunistic for yourself. and that making it work, is still possible and tangible.
imagine He had written our names on huge majong papers. on each piece of paper, our names are linked with numerous numerous ways our life can lead and form - like a huge spider web that hasnt been made yet. He probably puts all these and the drama bits into our lives so that it's more entertaining for Him to watch us, like characters of a reeeeeally long play. if not, all His creative figurines would all go thru the same path, eat the same thing, make the same mistakes, wear the same kinda dress style, talk to same way and die the same way. my, how boring is that. that would make the world sucha commonplace.
then again, i can still imagine Him sighing reeeeeeally loud everytime i make a silly mistake, shaking his head and wondering why He has to make someone as exasperating as me. but im going to know and assume He still adores and love me, the horrible sinner and scatterbrain muddlehead ;)
have a great week everyone, and gather up what you can this last month of 06 - it's gonna be buried under our reclaimed land soon. smile and let a little sunshine in, tralala:)
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