ive been getting reoccurring bad dreams lately. as in rather bad ones that revolve around my life, on school, tim, relationships in general. im not very sure why.
but it's kinda bugging me with the feeling of waking up either from a state of shock, in tears and all with a heavy boulder on the heart. not a very nice feeling dont you think. if it was a one-time off thing it's alright, but it's been three times, all different dreams but not consecutively.
dreams are, denotatively, a series of thoughts, images, and sensations occurring in a person's mind during sleep. some people believe that dreams are premonitions of the future. some people think that dreams are subconscious thoughts of your mind while others believe that we dream of what is the opposite. i kinda hope it's the last two issues.
i dont usually remember my dreams, but lately i have. these funny bad dreams. funny in the sense that they are weird and random. they are coloured and usually there is dialogue involved.
im inclined to think that dreams are probably things or issues that we harbour in our minds, subconsciously. these dreams have to come from somewhere. and more often than not, our brains work like a mind on its own, it's like a little factory that never stops. every day and every minute, we are thinking of things, we have thoughts crossing our minds about anything in the world. it gets worse, if youre a paranoid freak who worries the hellauva things like me.
this is when the brain probably creates a gallery. one that stores up all these issues, or things that you usually tell yourself, "ahya nevermind la. nothing will happen in that way. dont have to worry." but you see, you
do. you worry about it constantly. your mind creates a natural situation or scene that you are almost sure will happen. and having that internal little battle of worrying and with the other half of your mind, telling yourself things will be fine and suppressing that anxiety that's growing into an enormous watermelon.
i guess it is during the dreams, that we actually encounter these 'hidden' thoughts. almost like Pandora's box. and there's nooooooooo way you can stop that reel of film in your mind being screened once the 'play' button is pressed.
sometimes these dreams are good, since maybe we do think of nice happy optimistic thoughts or even fantasies while other times it just comes out plain awful. we cant reeeeeeeeeeally control that either.
im not superstitious or all that sort, but i guess im paranoid, and that hose of paranoia has its tap on by the trickle. hmm. i cant really do much now can i.
anyway it's one week more till chinese new year! now, that's a happy thought. maybe it might influence the intensity and basis of my dream tonight. happy thoughts happy thoughts. ok a bit early, but well sweet dreams then:)
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