have you had funny days when you didnt seem to be feeling what youre suppose to be feeling?
almost like you feel awkward or weird that your current state of being isnt the same as what it should be - based on experience or a common standard that seems to have been set by other people who have been in the same situation.
somehow you find yourself being more puzzled about your current emotional status instead of the situation that caused that reaction.
you start to frown, crease your eyebrowns and look up quizzically into space, trying to figure out why arent you feeling the 'norm'.
you realise that youre feeling:
surprisingly calm when you should be jumpy panicking
silently smiling when you should be deeply melancholic
when you should be freakin' pissed but youre not
when you should be ecstatically overjoyed but youre not
when you should be gladly grateful but youre not
when you should be anxiously frantic but youre not
when you should be empty but yet youre not exactly feeling soit makes you start to wonder what is the reason for that warped change.
you get preoccupied and annoyed when you cant seem to find that enlightenment.
or worse, you start to worry about the one thing you are hiding from yourself.
Labels: insides, ponder
