i wish i knew exactly what the issue is.
i wish i knew how to handle it.
i wish i knew how to be feeling.
i wish i could be as sure as
you are.
i wish i knew what i should know.
i wish i didnt need to make
you feel this way now.
thing is, i dont know how to make it be better. even as i really want to.
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sometimes it comes by really well.
things fall into place and nothing seems to be able to get rid of that breezy positive feel.
it is carried in your step, in the things you do and your aura just lights up.
but other times, like a split personality disorder, it disappears.
it vanishes without a sight and no matter how hard i try, i dont get it back.
or i dont know how to get it back.
like sand that has slipped through your fingers and youre desperately trying to gather the same grains back.
it's not a good feeling to feel.
it's disorder, insecurity, uncertainty and helplessness all rolled into a ball you can't hold.
i hope it's temporary. if not, im not sure what i am going to do.
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