i did not realise that i have left this place to collect cobwebs and dustmites.
school has started, projects have rolled in and made themselves known - each of them demanding and expecting full attention given to them. like some prissy brats. yes they are.
it's to the point the bf says, "I wish I were an assignment."
i actually intended to write on some other topic but it slipped off the mind, so that topic has been buried in the sand until it resurfaces.
it's funny, odd, weird and ironic how things evolve over time.
sometimes, with science and logic, we try to piece things and pieces up to make a picture that we can understand and eventually accept.
we work our minds to find those pieces, to fit them into the most logical places, linked with many bridges of assumptions and predictions. whether they carry truth we do not know, but we rather not know sometimes.
we don't make that move to ask, sometimes we think its embarrassing, other times, we just think its inappropriate or maybe we just dont care.
our (normal) mind works in that common sense manner. and as said, we try to make the predicted reality be something we think we can accept.
maybe we mentally prepare ourselves for news. maybe we (subconsciously) rather not be left stunned by unpleasant surprises. so we brace our minds of the case scenarios.
thats where the self-fulfilling prophecy comes in, isnt it?
but then again, sometimes we just get so tired with the fast-changing slideshow in front of us, that we get confused if we are part of the set, or the audience. and because of that, we become passive, we become stale, we become unfeeling, unmotivated, nonchalant selfish beings.
is this why suddenly characters switch roles, core beliefs change, invisible bonds are broken and the set dissolves into a foreign land?
and at that moment of discombobulation, you just wish you predicted this.
Labels: insides, random, school
