every one of us is built, made, formed and shaped with somesort of internal instinctive defense mechanism.
it's just almost involuntary. something you rarely would think about on a daily, normal basis. but when the situation calls for such a decision, the mechanism is whipped out immediately without a thought. it's like a personal weapon.
this weapon can vary for anyone. silence. ignorance. violence. it can really be anything. whatever works for that person, animal or thing.
but all those different weapons, are basically to protect yourself.
it serves as the shield that blocks the dangerous, harmful penetrations from another party. it defends the most vulnerable parts of you - flesh, heart or mind.
most of the time, it's guarding your emotions. the real ones that we seldom let others see or know of.
those emotions also get tagged along by thoughts, actions, sequence of events, consequences and that whole junk of tangled nonsense (which usually all suddenly make their appearance of presence at the most
appropriate time).
sure it's selfish.
but it's also something the first thing or at least one of the immediate things, one person would think of when a crisis calls.
i can't say ive never been a victim of such selfish thoughts. even i have my moments.
like recently.i just hope there wont be too many of these sort of situations coming by soon, if not it'll just be helping to inculcate quite a habit.
and as you know, habits are hard to kick off.
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