i'm at work, horribly sleepy for some reason (ok maybe cos i slept almost 3am) and ive got blisters at the edge of my toes and feet thanks to trying to wear pretty flat (ok with a little wedge-heel) shoes for work.

i should go make a cup of tea (with the generosity of my senior writer's stash) and put plasters on where they hurt (might neglect the small ones).

i also realise i tend to blog like that nowadays - with commentary mentions in parentheses, quite a habit lately. especially if any of you are regular readers of the HKblog instead.

btw, happy birthday da sao! :)

faith is such a big big word that comes with his partner, trust.

how do you build something on faith? on the basis of trust and hope?

over time, sometimes it's instant like a strike of the lightning to your head or it could be the slow weaving of spider's spittle from one end to another, it forms those invisible strings that you never would see or notice until the string gets jerked or strained.

what if you had all that trust, not strained, neither is it jerked, but like an entrance to your soul, that string allows entry by that very other soul. you've let that person in and it's hard to close.

that string has become that bridge - one you fervently hold on to, one that you might absentmindedly twirl as you think.

but it's also that string that allows both parties to be easily hurt, simply because both have that direct entrance. the direct reach to where it hurts most and possibly seen the least by many.

that string can hold you back. but yet that string makes you think more than just twice over decisions. it lets you take that moment of thought and breath.

that string can be the toughest but also the weakest.

how do you even use your own mind and heart to dislodge all that emotional strings that have tangled all that common sense and logic that you'd usually have clearly?

do you even trust what you feel, when you're not even sure how you do?

you got me fumbling, wondering, pondering, mindlessly helpless without a sane mind.

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