have you ever had moments when you find yourself looking at the date of the day - be it at the front page of Straits Times, your phone, the corner of your computer screen, and it hits you what day it is.
you don't even need to flip a page or get a trigger reminder, but you just know. the day comes to you as strongly as well, no not in
that manner, but like how the fine powder of pepper gets sniffed up your nose and you aren't prepared for it.
then at that moment, your mind fills up with the past, something, someone, some event related to that date. and then your emotional capacity gets a notification on the feelings associated with that. be it hate, pain, regret, happiness, laughter, etc all wrapped and drenched with nostalgia.
details, details, details. they all fall like sudden torrential rain.
if you're in control, well, it stops as quickly as the flashback starts. you carry on. but if you're not, you're left in a daze the whole day. remembering, recalling and recognising.
i'm glad it's been years since today, so it's okay, the puzzling feeling has tapered off. in fact, i find it slightly chuckling that i can still remember today - almost like clockwork every year.
happy birthday to you, wherever you are.
Labels: nostalgia, ponder
