ever had the sense of..like somehow something's not complete?
like you're kept hanging by the ledge, trying to wait for something to happen?
it's a bundle of emotions that's quite tricky to work out.
at one moment, you've got this sense of suspense, mind filled with wonder and a mix of excitement and anxiety.
but later on you find yourself feeling slightly impatient, wanting more to come out of this sand grain.
you get this feeling of annoyance, wanting some action, some movement, some progress, some sign to move forward with.
but yet you rather wait because you don't want to jeopardise or make a premature death to whatever you're waiting for.
even worse, you come to a point when you wonder why on earth you're waiting.
your hope for something is slowly being filled and the level of doubt is rising.
why? what are you really expecting anyway? is it of any worth waiting for?
then you fall back down to earth, hard and almost depressing.
and the funny thing, you wonder why you let yourself go through all that for.
Labels: jittery, ponder
