it used to come on as pain, with threat and coercion as a motivation, or maybe not really one, but at least as a push factor for success.
now it's just pressure. the immense weight that comes from the simplest things or even silence, brings about the same notion of pressure.
of course everyone wants to do well. it's part of what we have learnt, how we've been trained since we were toddlers, to learn traits to be the survivor of the fittest.
so of course everyone's biting each other's asses, the world becomes selfish, and really, everyone's alone when its in success pursuit. and whether you like it or not, you'll step on others, you'd use them, take advantage of their weaknesses and shine.
come'on even charities have to fight with other charities to receive publicity, awareness and funding.
so it's how the world works, and to really survive and be accepted in the society we live in, we just have to follow in line. somehow, somewhere in our lives. doesn't matter in which aspect, even love, but everything has to be fought over.
so really, i
know i have to do well, Parents. you've been telling me that.
p.s. haha i've noticed, that while the positive huitze is still somewhere, the pessimist huitze does fight to get more notice, or just to be heard. they have share.
p.p.s. exams are less than two days. there's only how much i can try to squeeze inside the head. so yah, maybe another two days-worth.
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