i hate it, i hate it, i hate it, i hate it.
i hate everything around it.
i hate the fact that it's for my own good. i hate the fact that it's all for good intentions, for the
betterment of the future, for the best of everything.
who determines 'best'? what's determines as best?
i hate it. i hate the very fact that i can't hate it like a person.
of course i know all that, of course the standards of the world are like this, of course there is a reason why we have to fight for our placement and space, of course there is a reason we have to thrive in competition.
sure everything will 'fall into place' at hindsight, when we're mature, when we've grown up, when we're wiser and when we've seen the world and its horrors.
but really, the fate of beings having to rely on others to live, learn and grow really sucks. you aren't doing all this for yourselves, what a lovely novel idea if it were to be!
you aren't (or at least currently) doing all to live life 'better'. you're doing this for others. the Others around you who hold more power than you.
the Others who nurture, give, child, love, support you. these freakin' Others are who you're living for.
Technically, we're just roleplaying.
We all live for others, we don't live for ourselves.
Labels: insides, jittery, peeved
