i need to get it right.
i seriously have to. there's no way around it.
the thought of screwing up and disappointment, is just my defense mechanism prepping early for any possible (which is highly) setbacks. all the lowering of expectations, setting the mind like a stage backdrop and the self-blaming thing? all part of it.
in fact, it really looks like pessimism wins most of the time when it's related to this. that's cos with pessimism you don't have so much to lose unlike optimism.
what has happened to you?Labels: alittlebitoff, jittery
