well oh well, it's almost the end of week two at school. it feels strange, at many moments i wonder to myself why does it feel like i've been in school for so long while other times i surprise myself that it's already second week into the academic year.
my freshies are actually meeting together and reading their readings together. and while that gives me a reality kick, it also makes me feel glad that they are :) i don't remember doing so in second week a year ago, for some reason.
the last few weeks have been tiresome, tedious and almost a torture, with so many things (and people trying to) mess up with my head, with details, options, choices and 'what ifs'. screws up the mind, especially an indecisive one.
now that it's kinda toned down, by pressure, by time and maybe by evasion, options have been closed (or have they?) and even till now i still wonder about the 'what ifs'. and that's probably precisely the issue with me, people know i wonder and turn these things in my head. it's like bi-polarism takes place in there.
and i can see it's another major junction of my school life in university. it's going to be one of the moments. and i hope along with that junction, i don't lose people along the way, or at least the people that matter.
i'm probably not making too much sense, but i realise these things have to come out, before my head gets caught in the swirls. i should try to go back to my readings which i've been trying to settle.
Labels: alittlebitoff, jittery
