Harder to be the one who leaves.
doesn't matter once, twice, multiple or frequent. the same feeling creeps up when you know it's coming.
and it really isn't a nice feeling.
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I chanced on past shows of the Ellen Show where
Ellen DeGeneres invites
Portia de Rossi on the show. and really it spurred a rather long night just feeding the sudden interest and awe in the kind of life they have.
not the celebrity shine and dine, but the amazing meaning they share. they are
just so sweet!
I know, I'm probably damn slow about this. well, I knew about their official union of the social contract but you know how far the lives of these celebrities are far from the real lives we lead? so I never really had the inclination to read up or interest in their relationship. to me, it was like a normal marriage of two people really.
so yes, I admit I'm slow about the whole hoo-ha. but really, I've never seen or heard
real instances about the love shared between two same-gendered lovers. of course I know many who are, never doubt they do and can believe, share, experience and embrace the feeling the same way heterosexuals do, it's just that that evening, it just revealed an even deeper respect and awe for them, and the friends I know who do.
I've read many years ago an article that did cover this; that this love actually can be so much more true and worthy as the usual one we're so used to. simply because it tests time, tests societal barriers, lived through societal scarring and heck, just renders love to be more universal than it can ever be.
so while we battle out other usual things like family background, financial status, race, religion, primary school history, pet animal preference, etc. come 'on, who are we kidding, they've got so much more to worry about.
haha and yes, i'm very much still very straight. :)
